hey hey hey. you know what. life sux. haha. lets count down the ways starting formt he most trvial. my primary school friedn whom i have not seen in four years, fatimah, meets me on the train. i say how you dong, she laughs at me and walks in the other direction. !!!??? okay. next. my face is breakoing out in pimple again, and it annoying, cause it is around my mouth, and im guessing its because of my mosutache, pimples are getting there. and i now i cant shave my moustache, cause the pimple ARE there. whatabitch. next: my outing with mrs leslie and company to play pool was ruined, cause some idiots decided to be born after 2 june 1989. dam you! haha. incidnetally so am I. and besides that, they were all wearing school pants. by they i was, referring to ben ow, ben mao, and alfred. so we went to teh food court at Parkway to talk and all. as usual. haha. pretty fun anwyays. Oh get this. The t-shirt is Nice. oh yeah. haha. i dont care if you call it 'mat', my sis got it, and mrs leslie said itw as nice. thats affirmation enough. ahha. rights. stupid SAJC foum thingy is tomorrow. i still dont know the official title of the whoel thing. haha. ive been calling it green citites forum, geography thingy, and a whoel lot of other names. well so today after goign out with the guys i went over to dannel's house and practised.
haha. we discussed, we practised, and im feeling confident. haha.... mrs er promised us at least a bronze. so my fingers are crossed. with enoguht luck, conviction and points, we reallyc an pull this off. and on the bright side, its one thign less to care about. finally.... oh god. campfire. sunday. cantw ait till its over. its a real pain in the neck. hahaha. i just tried to sign into friendster using ratterz@homail.com. haha. kay out of topic. yeah, back to the geog crap. haha. dannel's house was dam nice. i swear. was at onam road or soemhtign like that. his floor was nice. coudl do my handstand there, for a reasonalbly long time. practsied quite abit. played on his eukelele' thingy. haha. was cute.
told wei ket i coudnt help out in lltc. realy too much for me to handle. 70 KM hike and all. fuck lah. after that hike i really so need to get away from all the cca. ARGHH! shit lah. is wear. i so want to join nicholas and his studying ritual. it will os help me. but all my fuck is holding me back. here is a preveiw of the next month. saturday, geography cunt. sunday campfire bitch. monday, to thursday is bio...acceptable lah. monday after school. more pre 70km hike shit. thursaya nd friday. the 70 km hike shit itself. saturday and sunday. with enough luck i wont stone these two days away. monday to thursday: student leader's convention. friday, saturday sunday. one more week. thats all i have. God. where is my holiday. what happened to planning the great outing with joshua and all. what happended tot he graet intensive studying plans with nicholas. eveyrhtign sucks. haha. well almost.
listening to chinese songs on carrie's radio station... what is happening. had a nice talkw ith dannel as he sen tme to the train station. about alot of things. then the topic came to me hatigns couts, and he reminded me how i said i woudl never quit scouts. haha. see, dannel was one of those many who DID quit scouts early on cause they were scarred of the seniors. there was ALOT of them who quit. and i think i was probably disturbing him bout quitting scouts. and now i think about it. why didnt i quit. so i reasoned it out. like the way it came out of my mouth on the spot. ahah.
"you see, i never liekd scouts. But i never wanetd to quit. i nevr wanted to give my seniors the satisfaction of knowing i quit. i nevr wanted to let them say, tehyw ere better than me, or did i couldnt take it in scouts. i dont want them to say, that i wasnt good enough ins ocuts. never woudl i let them happen. i rose the ranks. get to the top, reach the peak, get above them. and then leave. say ive been there ive doen that. and im better than you lot. thats the reason is tayed. to prove to them."
ina way, im motvated by that in alot of ways. by the need to prove eveyrone wrong. yeah. any by teh way, thanks for the call. made my day, twice. haha.
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