i should stop saying fuck. yeah. ive been trying. haha. and for my own sake, i need to stop talking too fast too. i come out sounding really strident. which doenst really work to my advantage all the time. sigh. alrigths
And now im doubting me. i know i shoundt be, but im down. I have been down. Ben jelen, is pro. Great musical arrangement.
Everyone's wants m to be dfferent. my parents want me to be sporty or rugged. my friends want me to be fun. my teachers want me to be serious. i want to be artistic. i want... frankly i dont know what i want anymore. sigh. this is where the conflct of intrests starts. when my own intrests are undefined. this is possibly the most nebluos stage of me life. sigh.
this morning, did abit of gardening and went with me mom to buy breakfast. as i type the rest of my family right now making lunch. haha. sighs....
yesterday i skipped tuition. haha. whatevr. ill go next week. went to cafe cartel for lunch with my family. was good. then went shopping with me sis. i bought this REAALLy good looking S & K shirt. which was kidna comfy too. and this A level Chem textbook, which i was reading before i came online. mmm. chem... because i dotn want to stagnate. because i want to keep learning. yah. haha. its true for all subjects.. the first stages are the worst. but once you master it, you dont want to settle for less. you just want to keep going, and growing.
last night went to OLPS youth mass, at the request of michelle and wesley. haha. it was fun. the first people i met there was kyle, kurt(kyle's brother), Sam, shane, and damien. Sam later went off with his friends. teh church was way cool. bao was on the bass and it was excellent. inspired me even more to learn. after the Os... haha. thats what i say. afte the Os. hmmm. yesterday i kinda mastered 'Handsdown' and 'be like that' on the guitar. yay. pleased with myself. first time i learnt to play something without the help of anyone else. sweet. progress rocks. as compared to stagnating. sigh. michelle, wesley and josh and freda were in the choir. cool. after the mass, josh, damine, kyle, kurt, myself and some other girls walked ourselves to siglap macs for supper. haha. was fun. josh was going crazy again. haha. sigh. and when josh is crazy it kidna spreads. there was a girl named leanne. who knew my name. 0_o... hmmm. aparently i met her way back in sec 1. haha. ah'. that gang. the old alexcia and so on people. pffft. its been long.
once in macs we reunited with alot of people. and mt alot of peopl.e. like uhm... nicole and jeanete and yama. or was it yana. oh wells. haha. they were cool. shared a cab home with nicole seeing as how she lived in pasir ris. apparently she is in Y2Y too. yeah. says she recgonized me as being annurshah's friend. hmmm. im being recgonized too often. not good. haha. wesleywas sitting with germaine and felecia. who were asking me alot of random questions. ahha. weird funny people. the whole lot of them.
oh i almost forgot! Josh got a splinter. haha. yeah. got it out in the end. hmmm. bao and freda were also in macs. sigh. and now i gtg have lunch..
and i dont know what is going on. i dotn know whats happening. i dont know.. i swear i have never been so at home, and so lost. shitty-ness. that was my compo title. lost. god. i dont wanna think about my english marks.
anyways. here is my L1R3----7
and here is what i predict my l1R5 will be------25
yeahs. sigh. i hate bio. disection makes me sick.
i wanna study. desperately. but i cant do it alone. sickeningly.
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