sigh. okays, im gonna take awhile to compleet this post seeing as how im simultaneously chattignw ith my juniors from scouts and some other people. i never was good at multi-tasking anyway. haha.
a glimpse into one of the conversations:
1)you DONT 'HAVE' Girls! you 'know' them, dude. its a big difference. its not like soem kinda game where you accumilate points with the more girls you HAVE!! wow... whats wrong with you people.. sigh...sec threes...
2)Babies are the cutest things in the world. haha. their innocence. how you can dress them up and they never complain. sigh. the world will be a happier place if everyone was like babies. haha. sigh...
okay, that all worth telling about my MSN conversations for now. haha.
my emotions are mixed and confused. part of me screming in shock that the whole year has just flew right by under my nose. another part panicking over how near the Os are. and of course the third voice which is more calm and relaxed and sighing away saying "about time, its starts. Finally we can do this thing, ge t it over and doen with". hmmmm.
i have been having alot of restrained sexual fantasies lately. haha. as S. Freud would have put it. apparently all our dreams, are manifestations of repressed sexual fantasies. haha. and i have been having alot of dreams lately. dream ater dream after dream, night after night after night. its true. hmmm. to take up space in this blog i shall write about some of them
1)waking up and helping anna carry down his 'war bags' to the livign room. oh. and my room was clean in that dream. haha.
2)entering VJC and seeing peter there. and he asjked me to run. and i started running. and running. and the whole jc was cheering us. and we were running like nothing. and i coudl feel my speed pick up. and it felt great, and tiring.
3)zenn, and wei jie and dora and alot of ppl i didnt recgonise falling asleep in my house. alot of them were drunk. and had just passed out on the floor. and i was stepping over all of them trying to get out of the house.
4)getting trapped in the home econs room, with a war outside. the war was between my side (st pats) and the geyland warriors which were wearing police uniforms. and i was hiding in the home ec room. which looked like a wet market. and i saw nadia there. and she was wearing the costume she wore for her syf. and she pointed to this agar cake in one of teh stalls. and said she wanted it. so i ask the aunty for it, and the aunty gave it to me and i gave it to her. tehn she gave me that giggly smile and walked away. then suddenly the aunty asked me for money. so i paid it, ffeling surprised, cause i htought it was free the first time she gave it to me.. and then nadia dissapeared!
5)me and my family walking through a fair or carnival but it was in pasir ris park. and then we realised we were in autralia. and this autraian girl kept falling me.
6) me and kyle waiting outside an underground bar for marc, de wei and the rest. and we were smoking these thin rolled peices of paper, that had no flavour, and didnt taste like ciggaretes. and we were both pissed off.
7)sititng in this ferri wheel with theodore and shane. and theodore was french kissing this ang moh girl. and i was feeling sad for soem reason.
8) this game in st pats at night. where it was 4E1 against the ventures (the 04 batch). and we were all getting reeaaaly geered up and really worked up and all set to beat them. and the place between the kiely block and the stephen block was a playground. with sand and monkey bars and all.
9) walking along the staircase of the sing post office building with some girl i didnt know. then suddenly marcus and aloysius appeared and brought me somewhere else. and they said soemthing like 'training starts now'. and aloysius was laughing.
10) walking under my tution tecaher's block when this malay guy comes up to me and says, hey you want free ciggarettes, its behind that wall there. and behind the wall were large peices of paper roled up with ball bearing inside. and some of them has blackish powder inside. and i stepped on one of them to see what would happen, and it fired a ball to the opposite block..
there were more dreams for sure. but ic ant remember. yeah. there were ALOT of dreams these past few days.
yesterday went to study with jeremy. had lunch at great world then went to study some more at his church where i met dennise and karen and amazingly large sec 1 SJI boy. haha. yeap. later that night went back tos tarbucks where i met kubo. and we chatted. sigh felt nostaligic.
im feelin nostalgic. after reading those comics chey showed me. nothign nice to say. sigh. really reminded me of the 'smarvin era'. the comics zenn used to draw. it was so... similar. sigh. i miss it. and there was one about me. building the giant gun that went 'ka chag ka chag!" with the two chinese letters following me, everywhere i went. or soemthing like that. sigh. p 6. its been four years. wow. time does fly. sadly. and soon ill be going to jc. wow.
anwyays ill be off now. ciaos.
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