depresso

got home aftr debtaes. feelin sad. dunno why. possible reasons for me to feel sad



1)debates=responsibility=pressure=not very fun

2)the half cleaned up study room

3)the thought that tomorrow i could have gone to sentosa with ben mao and the rest, but instead id be debating.

4)hardly any sleep

5)hardly any cash. and todays lunch was crap

6)i remember saying yes to kawai's party thingy. but i forgot all the details.. so now im worried. haha.


7)the thought that my fate for the next three months will be confirmed next week.


8)wondering if my mom will ever adapt and accept to my new goign out eveyrday lifestyle. and staying out as long as i want.


9) thinking about piano class this thursday. and shit man. need some serious catch up.


10)scared of dissapointing jas and bryan c. sigh. whatever. just do it and get it over with.


sigh. since im in a depressed mood... i shall talk about love.
why the hell is it so dam hard to find true love. or find someone we love. because we are just too many people. all of us. we are never a signgle face. NEVER. all of us have our multiple personalities. and to find someone else who loves all our multiple pesonalities in all its flaws, as well as for these personalities to like theirs... wow. its like a super complex code, which has to work out for both sides. everysingle personality of both parties have to somehow be compatible with everyother personality. and thats why its nearly impossible to find love. yay. now i feel worse.




i miss my dog. sigh.




wednesday meeting marky marc at SCC. thursday have piano class. and i wanna go wild wild wet. but see how things go. sigh...




gaah. dont want! DONT want! No More debates! No more responsibility! no more pressure. i just want to fucking hell have my life. i want to go out. i want to go fishing, skating, running, walk around town, watch plays, explore the night life, play pool, all that! i want to. so badly. and... i dunno. i work bad under pressure. so now i need my sleep. and my food.




im justa kid. gimme a break.




"i dotn know who she is anymore"
amen to that, sister. amen to that.




from shane's tag game thingy i can infer one thing. he's emo. so he shoudl stop listening to hip hop, rap and RnB! Emo and indie rock is here for you. come to our side. its calling. haha. kay whatever. ill be going now. dunno whats happening. dunno where i stand. dunno whats happening.



"You dont drift apart from people because of cicumstances, or because of the situation. you drift apart because you let them"



"People see what you want them to see"