curiouser and curiouser, as i notice the feeling we(or maybe im just speaking for myself right now) attach to places, movies, songs, people and even objects. how that sense of nostalgia, once invoked can bring us to this dreamy state, hard to snap out of. how once i feel my observations and interepretations dull, my joy and happyness propotionally increases. interesting, how the meanings of the same song can change for me overnight. romantic how reminiscing over the past makes me feel both stronger and weaker at the same time.
"all my life ive been looking for the answer, to all the questions she never asked"...
Just wathed the insider. Brilliant movie. I mean BRILLIANT! today i shall give myself a well deserved TV marathon. cuase im not usually the TV sort. but ive been noticing these few cool new things on TV which i really wanna watch. Road to perdition. Tonight at 10 i think. MUST watch. Loved the book. uhmmm. there is also this documentery on Homo Sapiens at arts central. or CNA. i dunno. whatever the case, i bet its gonna rock. love those kinda "animated" documentries. soo dam cool. haha. I still remember watching "walking with beasts" on Arts central the night before my maths lecture test. haha. really explains my results on retrospect: "Its a multiple of three... and less than 5...." Hahahah. nuts.
anyways, i think there are many many many more great movies on TV to come. I saw this ad which had like "the hours" "gangs of new york" and all in it. And i was blown away. those are two VERY classy movies. own both VCDs. haha. nice.
this morning, debates was canceled. no more NTU. or was it NUS. i dunno. dont really care. Reason for withdrawing: my team mates are appealing. nuts man. so i went to TJC. OGL thinga. Thanga. Thang. haha. has a nice slur to that. "do that thang". hahah. kay, sorry. no more digresions.
Got there on time, for a change. listened to somhting corporate on the train till my batteries died. so kiran got me new ones. WOHOO! Batteries! practised new cheers with our house (azurous) then we went for briefing. then we danced. and we won. sweet. just like that. and now we lead.
bringing a discman is a sign of loneliness. it isolates you from the people around you. its as good as saying "whatever conversation you can possibly come up with cant be half as good as this music. despite the fact i listen to it again and again at night,blasting my speakers as i drown the noise crying at my sad fucked up life"... or myabe less emo. but you get what im trying to say, dotncha.
after the whole thing was feeling slightly displaced. haha. dam right. ive become a loner in nearly every way... first the discman. than the lack of peeps to have lunch with.
but i wasnt going to let that happen. so i roped eugene into having lunch with me. and somewhere along the way we ran into the clan master of invictus. kan man? something 'man' im sure. and yeah, we just talked. and his two friends. and it was really cool. just chatting to someone you run into at the hawker. and it really had this way of reducing all the "loser" thoughts and irkings inside of me. or maybe i still am a loser. justa a really sociable one. hah. thats life i guess. and yeah, proud to say that discman just stayed in my bag. not coming out once at all. even in the train ride home with Beng. Beng. hahah. whatagreat name. maybe its spelled different. or maybe its 'ben' and i got bad hearing. haha. i wont be surprised either way.
just recalled. cousins outhingy tonight. should really get down to invitations if its gonna be tonight. heh.
a point to ponder on. can dummies fail crash tests? hmmm...
to an extent, im jealous of michael joo. he has it easy. posted to CJC. and thats that. there he shall go. no qustions asked. no one to convince. no one to persuade. the decision is made for him. sigh... whereas its not so clear cut for me. i got to decide. all my life ive been faced with the problem of making my own decisions. and i tell you ive been screwing alot of them up, if not for the help of my parents. but this is one i gotta think through... and here is the basis for my whole motive to go to CJ. Yesterday at macdonalds:
So i went there with my CG mates. were going to play pool. and there my eyes came into contact with theirs. two pairs of eyes. two pairs of smile. one tan- coloured face, the other as pale as a ghost. both bringing memories of a time in my life i would never forgt. There sitting at the window of macdonals was Ben ow and Marc Oliver. and i was off like a bullet. before i knew it i was sitting next to them, talking eating and making plans for our next meeting. and there is just one way i can describe it. "a breathe of fresh air"... it was exactky what i needed. god, i miss them. anyways, soon, marc had to go back to his VJ friends, ben had to go and sun tan and i had to reunite with the TJ peeps. and i just looked at them. sitting at the table. two were playing with their graphing calculators. one with his handphone... my god... stark contrast to benow and marky marc. and that was my future... shit man... that sucks...
without a doubt in the world michael joo is lucky... i swear by it.
What do you want?
I want to do well in my alevels...
Thing is i can do well anywhere i go, cant I...
pool rocks. expensive but fun...
im off. dont miss me when im gone. i know you wont..
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