hello! haha. i just realised my last entry didnt make much structural sense. and can be so easily mis interpreted. but heck. doesnt really matter anyways. not like many people read this. wheeee!
i realised i like saying wheee! gives me a cheap sorta high feeling when i say it.
theodore's in cananda. miss the guy. miss alot of guys. maan. so sad how people move on. and people forget. but then there are always those people you just dont forget..
kay kay. enough emo from me. haha. im through with that for now. especially in nights like this. nights spent with good friends doing random bullshit after a productive day of studying. yeaah. those are the nights, that absolutely make you feel things are going smooth.
Then again, the fact that im skipping LOADS of things im supposed to be committed to doesnt say much for my time management. i.e skipping ICS practise. skipping buying the things for my group for SC camp. skipping meeting for 30th council investiture. for which ima v IC. hmmm. thats bad. whats even worse is there is a rebecca in my phone and im thinking WHICH rebecaa. so that really screws with my organisation alot. i still remember my days in st pats when i would send scout info to prefects chris, and prefect info to scouts chris. meeeh. screw organisation.....
its like what my PEAKS profile says. i suck at organisation. which is way true. i aint denying that. sigh.... peaks peaks peaks.... alot of my thingys were similar to lizzy's. cools. i think the majority of our class got like the same kinda 'M' shape. cept for a few exceptions.
i dotn get it. how some people can be so close to some people. in such a short period of time. like soefie and her TSD seniors, or friend zachary... or all those other 2nd intakers and their old class mates. or like people who become really good friends through these investitures or inter school camps. sigh.. maybe its cause ima thick skinned unsensitive guy, i dont really make close bonds very fast. or do i.... maybe im in denial. haha. losing track of myself again. i always do.
today i met priya. so cool. she was like one of those debators ive heard about that quit from stress and whatnot. she seems nice nontheless. fellow emcee for ICS night. yay.
today during debates i think the opp side has done pretty well thanks to the seniors of course. went to parkway with nigel, kiran and soefie after debates to chill. and we did. then after soefie left, nigel, kirana nd myself decided to become really rich and really interested customers for a while. hahal from jewellers to jewellers. haha. so fun. i like my friends. spontaneous dammit. you bet i am.
three more days. three more tough tough days. followed by another two tough tough days....
shalalal.
ive decided i dont want to be house captain. too much things on my plate as it is. and i will NOT quit debates. so id much rather natha or ying be house cap.
marcus is sending me nice songs. and so is kiran. yay. been long since i got songs.
doing lit homework at the same time.... cant concentrate though...
there was so much i wanted to write about here. like how it sucks going against human traffic. and how im feeling lost in school. and how im being overwhelmed. and how wet shoes dont dry as fast as youd like them to. and how eating chicken wings with forks is near impossible. and how i just want to slack. deep deep inside. im really a slacker. i really am. but there is something that is compelling me to be proactive. i htink i just like being called a leader. thats it. its just down to pride. sigh. and thats stupid... but how pride has always been a defining factor in nearly everything that has happened to me.
pride. pride can puff a man up but cant give him substance. sigh. not to say im lacking in substance. no. more like im lacking in time, organisation, and memory.
goodnight.
fuck la.... fuck... why didnt i just listen to vicnan'nna's advise.... WHY! take up small projects. dont kill yourself with long term commitments... shit man...regrets, regrets.
things just confuse you at times. lots of times.
so fucking sweet by howie day is good. good. good.
maan. if there was a way i could get sacked from council, without me losing my face for being irresponsible, that would be so perfect. get out of responisbility. now i know what kind ofa leader i am thanks to PEAKS. i think i can make these decisions better. and i think its really not worth it...
gaah. regret or to not regret. worthwhile or not worthwhile?
im conflicted. ima paradox. my stone isa paradot..
tomorrow ill be having debates as well as meeting for investiture planning. friday more debates. than saturday debate com. than after that ill join the SC for camp. sigh. insane...
CG pics.
i like soefie's comments. and picture takin skills. though she IS a camera whore. its true.
http://www.imagestation.com/album/review.html?id=2107203605&mode=invite
g'night.
god bless us all. i think we're gonna need it.
for soem reason im just writing and writing and not ending this entry. so ill end with a phrase from 'almost famous'. one of my favourite movies of all time. "your too sweet for rock and roll".
sigh. the best times of my life. sec 3 and 4. with the peak coming during my prelim, post prelim and o level period. finally the climax came in KL. and the after parties that followed. only for the joy to end with TJC....
to put things in a psychological perspective, i guess maybe thats why i didnt like TJ. i was taking out my anger of the end of my fun on someone. and that someone was TJC. The end of the peak. the closure. the denouement. untying the knot. sigh...
tell me what you thought about when you were gone and so alone...
aiyah. i cant take this anymore. my mind is so fucking restless. its going all over the place, not quite panicking but not quite content and at peace either. i give up. im gonna go play with my photos. maybe update them into sony image station.
cioas.
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