dont play with me

elvis is the king. mmmm..
"tell me dear, are you lonesome tonight..."


fuck it la.


they said that year 2s gonna be the fastest year ever. but dammit. when will this week just end already.


so im feeling troubled, and quiet.
by whats going on around me.
and whats happening to me.


i believe just a week or two ago talking to shereen. and saying so clearly, that in life, whats really important is "friends". its for these fellow people that we live our life for. or for me, at least.
but thats just whats troubling me.


the sheer number of half friends, and these half feelings and emotions for the quantity of aquaintances ive made. coupled together with my questions for my old friends from years ago, and spaces between months, and how time flies, and people fly with them. the emotions im feeling for people, which im wondering have the potential to cross that line of friends and more, and these spouts of jealousy, leading to me feeling wrecked for momenst, before rationality slaps back in, leading to me to curse myself for feeling that way in the first place.


this sucks. im troubled.
am i a good friend. am i real friend.
am i caring enough for some people. am i caring too much for others.


so its time like this all i can do is just shut up and wait.
wait. cause thinkings gonna mess it up. waitings always good.


wheeee.


trying so hard to not be a hypocrite. we all try dont we.


night.