polar bears can swim

need more redoxon...

--

i like my coffee tarik. not stirred..


..
False Reason I Go Gym
by Rishik Vijayadas Menon


ive sobered up
yet youve overdone this
understatement
letting me
lose communication
like the coverage
got on an island
out at sea.
I couldnt see
your beauty coming
with painted toe nails
so red as herring
its disarmed
my guard and bearing
till im lost
to your regard


my act is clean
of all past vices
the smoke and mirror
of rolling dices
that divide
senses of
rightness
of what feels right
and what feels right
then poison me
your belated gladness
makes me wish
upon maps and calendars
that ill be right
there to find you
when i need to
without haste.

so maybe
could you
ask me
if im
free enough
to stay...
just dont
please dont
let it be
a friday


--

Frigg is the Goddess of Friday.
damn, im obsessed with norse mythology.

---

so wow. three more weeks. damn.
but anyway, im feeling kinda good about one thing.
slowly gaining back my self-respect.
going running.
reading.
making it a point to meet my friends.
making time for myself to write.
going to the gym.
completing (nearly!) the CAAS application.
doing work.
running errands.
rinsing my mouth with listrine twice a day.
haha.
yeaah. its these little things i do
these acts of regimentation
and otherwise unnatural discipline
that boost my self confidence.


maybe things are gonna change? for the better. haha.

Dismantle and repair by Anberlin.

..
gonna miss my parents the next three weeks. sigh.
anyway, im off.


night!



yeaps. singapore is beautiful...
or at the very least pasir ris.

hell with the fact that the nearest bus stop is nearly a twenty minute walk away.
the beach is five minutes. the park is three.


and thats what matters, doesnt it?