nice guys gotta try

I genuinely wonder if you're like this to everyone.
sheer unforgiving bitchiness. or was it a signal i gave you, you saw, this streak in me, perhaps, that bears abuse and insult.
or is there something about my lifestyle and personality, my philosophy of life so at odds with your paradigms and world view, you see me as a symbol of everything youre against, of something that must be put down, so as to justify your own decisions.

maybe its the way you were raised. or did the company you hung around find it endearing and reward you for it?
do you see it as a strength of character. to cast judgements, put down people, make insults based on the most superficial of matters.

and its gets hard to justify how the things you say can be meant to be funny.
it doesnt even pass off as banter. low, undisguised sarcasm.
i mean if someone is genuinely pleased with their mediocre results, wheres the humour in sarcastically praising him. if someone floats an opinion, theres no wit in rubbishing his idea based on the country he's from. if someone is unaware of a particular pronunciation, what joy do you get in mimicking the mispronunciation.

its a profoundly small-minded immaturity and arrogance passing off as intelligence.

i wish i had the power to open people's minds, without having to force them to listen. i dont, of course.
i have the patience though. to keep trying. until they do.