Feelings, insincere

Today i felt down for no reason. sigh. be right back. watching a pot boil. haha.

right backs. so here is my plan. to be as friendly as possible. no need to be smart. no need to be cool. no need to be funny. no need to be anything. just plain friendly. and i was goign to say natural, causal and friendly but somehting just hit me. thats not natural. whats natural for me might not be natural for someone else. and now, im just not making sense. sigh... fluffy coffee, fluffly dogs and a piano player in the background. yeasss. sigh.

yesterday was a screwed up day. sigh. thank god for those smses to keep me going. bleah. Smses. Messages on friendster. even a phone call. These are the small acts by friends that keeps us goin in this bitch called life. We all got hrough shit. and it no point keeping it in. we need to tel someone. we cant hold it in. its only natural. we are all kids i mean. we have to confide. cause life is gonna suck alot if you hold it in. and sometimes just eating chocolates doesnt help. haha. my point? My message to all my fellow teens out there: SHARE your problems. we are all there for each other. and when we share, we relate to each other and we in fact strenghten friendships. yeap.

so i watched anniyan. omg... no comment for now. ill get back to that later.

today's national day celebratiosn were okays. i was supposed to relfect what i wanted for singapore. and then the mike screwed. oh wells. ahha. peter and chee keong were nice. they let me hang backstage while they tried to fix the mike. haha. anyways, syf was kinda disaster due to bad technology. and ben mao's rendition of collide accompnied by alfred and jonny. amazing. haha. was really dam nice. kubo's re spotted girrafes got first with kyle's moondance earning him runner up place. after the whole thing, kyle, slevam jas and myself came back to my house to change and all. then selvam, jas and me went to the seCDC thingy fer some meeting. hha.

gotta go have dinner now. be right back ya'll.

sigh. rights, the cdc thingy. haha. they wrote of bryan C's name and replaced it with mine. though bryan still wants to be in last time i checked. and i became ying;s girlfriend. haha. yay? and yeah, was fun lah. and cheyenne wasnt there. nope she wasnt.

after the thing, went to the station with michelle and shankir. or shankar, or shanker. whatever lah. he had cool piercings. i waant. ahha. ive decided already. a tatoo on my back. two peircings on my ear. one on my tongue one on my eye brow. haha. yeaps. and im gonna get my eyebrows threaded. ahhahaha. riiight.

dinner was good. tomorow ill be studying with zenn. yeahs. not cheyenne. and nadia has got all the pics from lats friday's pesa thingy and today's meeting thingy. which cheyenne didnt go for. not her.

so i really dont see how i can blog about you, when you arnt there... haha. kay, fine you were there last friday for the debates. yay. haha. i want my fluffy coffee. with marshmellows...


more studying less blogging. expect that. so long.