Spent

Spent.


my mind is fucking spent.
my wits have hit their end,
i thought i was nearly broken
but my heart wont fucking bend.


so dont lose heart. no matter what. dont lose faith.


and while this bitch ass of a face off might remain un-fucking-resolved, at least i leave with a clear mind and conscience, and stand on what kind of a person YOU are.


and fuck...


as overwhelmed as i was.. as stressed and taut i felt, the feeling of clearing all my tasks was incredibly relieving.


so what if i screwed my tamil, and history, and god knows what else. so what if nearly everything else is a mess. the fact that i managed to get jobs done, keep appointments, keep teachers updated, and get things out of the day. one by one, it was getting good.


and every "thanks" from a superior or junior, every online "hug" or "take cares" made their mark. thanks so much.


touching up on PW. the relief is immense. siigh. its just one day i know.
tomorrow it starts again. as early as 7, it all resumes. but for now... im at peace again...


for now...

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thanks so much to my friends again. you guys really make this 'brink-of-breakdown' loser pull through. all of you. whoot. im here. im in trouble. whatever. im good to go.